Thinking monkey

Why do I do it?

As a writer, one of the things I feel from time to time most of the time is the worry that I’m wasting my time. It’s one of the reasons that I haven’t shared with anyone except immediate family and a couple of friends that I write books.

Writing is such a private thing where you submerge yourself into a world that no one else knows about, which lingers in your head 24/7. You create the worlds, the characters, the situations. You have a say in everything. It reflects your own opinions, likes, dislikes. It’s based on your own experiences or prejudices or morals. It’s a deeply personal thing to put your creative thoughts on a page and then reveal it in the hope that it entertains others. Ultimately, some people will like what you do, and some people will hate what you do. Some people will praise what you do, and some people will criticise what you do.  Everyone has a right to their own opinion.

Staying focused and determined over such a long period while writing each book is like a marathon, but without the drink stands to douse your uncertainty along the way. It’s not something that you can reveal until it’s complete. So there are no pats on the back when a new character is created, or laughs at a joke that you’ve written and privately laughed about,  or encouragement to keep you inspired.

The ultimate judgement of whether what you’ve lived for so long is successful or not, boils down to the release. The only way you ever know if people approve or not is to release the book, cross your fingers and hope for more good than bad. The likelihood of a book being so successful that it changes your life big time is low. But if you don’t try, you can be sure of one thing - it will never happen. Giving things a go is the only way to see what you can do.

Whenever I have doubts about what I’m doing, and question whether it’s all worth it, I can’t help but turn to the source that inspired me to take the plunge and give writing a chance. J.K Rowling has had a huge influence on me. To meet and talk to her would be the most amazing experience. Although, I am realistic and know it’ll never happen. Her story is one that serves to remind me of what people are capable of doing if they have the right mindset.

J.K.’s journey has taken her from down and out, to one of rising above life’s challenges to achieve her well-deserved and epic success.  Her full story sits outside the pages of her books. Just watching one of the shows I have that feature J.K., always gives me that boost that I need along the way. It reminds me of what can be done. You may have guessed that I’ve just watched them to boost me as I get closer to the launch of my fourth book. I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve needed a boost and watched J.K. Rowling, A Year In The Life, or Who Do You Think You Are?  I find them both uplifting, inspiring and recharging.

So, the time has almost come for me to release another book to the world. To reveal what has been lingering in my imagination since mid 2013. It’s nearly time to be judged once more. Fingers crossed that there’s more good than bad. Why do I do it? – because I can’t help it.

PS. My new book TIME SQUARE | THE SHIFT  is dedicated to my real life heroes … take a look at who they are by clicking here.

Thinking monkey

About these ads

12 thoughts on “Why do I do it?”

  1. This is a wonderfully honest expression of the thoughts and emotions that go along with being a writer. (World famous or not.) I could not have said it better myself. I’m a bit jealous actually, that I couldn’t have. All the best with your new release. Your dedication is beautifully written.

    Like

  2. I’m exactly the same and hardly anyone I know knows I write! It’s hard to share what is essentially a part of you with the world, knowing that some (maybe many) won’t appreciate it. Good luck with the new book, I am certain it will be a hit x

    Like

  3. I loved the dedication. You are spot on with what you said. I had a conversation with a friend at school. She is such a talented writer. She starts and then quits. To have such a gift as she has and not use it makes me angry. She started crying and said she had shared part of the story she was working on and a family member she looks up to looked at her and said, “Really, you, a writer?” She shook her head and walked off. That was all it took. I’ve been sharing things from your site with her and she is writing again. You are an inspiration to so many.

    Like

  4. So true! Writing is a very private action—-where our victories are born in the dark, a musician may share his work with thousands all listening at once. Writing is truly an individual thing, which makes it all the more powerful, and personal.

    Like

  5. I was definitely having ‘why bother’ feelings for the last two months. Maybe it’s not the why bother writing, but the why bother publishing. Maybe it’s inevitable when a new book is on the way. “Why am I doing this?” is a question for anyone that’s pregnant, from time to time :)

    And then you know why…

    … and then you have more doubts.

    Like

I'd love to hear your thoughts about my post ... seriously!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s